Who knows what the world will look like tomorrow

post, Jul 8, 2023 on Mitja Felicijan's blog

This site has gone through a lot of changes over the years. From being written -in Flask and Bottle to moving on to static site generators. I have used and -tested probably 10s of them my now. From homebrew solutions to the biggest and -the baddest. From Bash scripts to Node.js disasters. I've seen some things, no -doubt. Not all bad.

I have been closely observing the web and where the trends are going, and I -don't like what I see. Instead of internet being this weird place where -experimentation is happening, it all became stale and formulized. Boring, -actually. Really boring. And sad. Where is that old, revolutionary FU spirit I -remember? It's still there, I know. But it's being drowned by the voices of -mediocrity and formulaic boredom.

It almost feels like that the internet stopped for 10 years and only now -something has started happening. With all the insanity around the world. People -hating people without actual reasons, just because it's fashionable to hate and -crowd is saying so. Sad state of affairs.

All this is contributing to this overall negativity masked as apathy. Everybody -walking in lockstep. Instead of being creative and bold, we are just -re-inventing the world and making the same mistakes. Maybe, just maybe, some -things are good enough and there is no need to try to be too smart for our own -good. After N-attempts, maybe something should click inside our heads to maybe -say: "This thing, opinion, etc. is actually really good, and even after several -attempts it still holds."

The older I get, the more careful I am of my own thoughts and why I think the -way I think. More and more, I try to understand people with opposite -opinions. Far from perfect, but closer to bearable. And then I see people -hearing or reading a thing on internet and let's fucking goooooo! Strong -opinions are a sign of a weak and uneducated mind. I am more and more sure of -this.

It's gotten to a point where you can with great certainty deduce a person's -personality based on one or two opinions. How boring have we become. No wonder -people can't talk to each other. These would be very quick conversations anyway.

I just got remembered of a song, "Hi -Ren". The ending talks about being -stiff and not being able to dance. Such an amazing metaphor. And we as people -have gone so far, we can't even walk or even crawl normally anymore. We have -forgotten that the most beautiful things in life have a great deal of -uncertainty about them. We want instant gratification. Not only that, but we -want absolute obedience. Complete control over others, because we have zero -control of ourselves. And all the lies we could tell ourselves will not help us -out of this situation.

It is funny how I catch myself from time to time being a complete idiot. It's -like having an outer body experience. I can see myself being an idiot, and -cannot stop myself. It serves as a learning lesson to stop before speaking. To -think before saying. And to crawl before walking.

So there is still time. We can dance once more. All we need to do is stop for a -second. Me and you. Us two is a start. Let's not try to change the world, but -rather nudge ourselves just a tiny bit. And if we only did that?! Just -imagine. Each of us nudged ourselves a small, tiny bit, the world would heal. If -we would just put down the phones and ignored Internet for a day or two. Put -visiting websites that feed on us on hold. Listened to just one sentence and try -to understand it from a person who we completely disagree with. I truly believe -that this is possible.

Life is about suffering and joy. And instead of wishing suffering on others and -excepting joy for yourselves, we should for a brief moment want suffering for -ourselves and wish joy on others. Wouldn't that be an amazing sight to see?

I caught myself hating on Rust. And I deeply thought about it afterward. Why did -I do it? It is obviously not for me. So why the hell was I being so negative -towards it? I think that I know the answer. I was negative because that is -easy. Because it's much easier to hate on things than to say to yourself: "Well, -you know what? This is not for me. I will focus on creation and not -destruction. This is who I want to be. This is what fills me with joy and -purpose." Where joy is keeping me happy and purpose scares the shit out of me -and keeps me honest. This is who I want to be. Admit to myself when I am wrong -and accept the faults that I have without reservation and with courage march on.

I just realized that this blog post is a sort of therapy for me. It's -cathartic. Going thought the history of this site and remembering all the -decisions and annoyances that came with it. When I was cursing at the tools. And -time moved on, and the site is still here. It serves as a reminder that -perseverance wins at the end. If we just let things go.

This came with a decision that simplifying life and removing all the unnecessary -negativity is key. Rather than worrying about what the internet is saying, what -the world is trying to take from you, you are the only one who can say no. And -create instead of destroy.

I don't have an ending for this post, so I will say this. We live in the most -amazing times in the recorded history, and we should be internally grateful for -it. Create and study, this should be my mantra. Just create and let the world -happen. And when you feel yourself to be too certain, stop and check how deep in the -shit you are already. Strong opinions are a sign of a weak and uneducated -mind. Hate and disdain is for the weak.